02 May 2017 @ 12:24 am
Sleeping With Ghosts (Prologue/?)  
Title: Sleeping With Ghosts
Author: [personal profile] forameus
Beta: [personal profile] matturemuser & also a big shout out to [personal profile] thekeyholder91
Pairing: Belldom
Rating: M for the moment, but will go up to E in the next chapters.
WARNINGS: none
Summary: The thing about love, Matt thinks, is that it haunts you just like a ghost.
Disclaimer: Muse not mine - sigh - this is just a work of fiction etc. etc.
Author’s note: I must admit that I had a lot of doubts about posting this - but then again, I don't think there was ever a time when I was 100% sure about my writing, so this is nothing new under the sun, really. Still, I haven't done this in a looooong (help me saying "looooong") time (actually, this is the first time I try to write, not translating, something in English, so bear with me) and while I did end up with a pretty long first chapter, I feel like this is too short to even be considered a prologue. However, since it's not exactly tied to the "real" beginning of the story,  and I still felt like it had to come before it - bit like a semi-spoilery introduction, if you want - I decided to post it anyway. Also, this is my official debut on MS@DW - champagne is on me! :D




The thing about Matthew —
 
 
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When he was a child, Matt had witnessed his mother perform — or pretend to perform — exorcisms on several occasions. Her makeshift abracadabras consisted mostly of bits of old prayers and random Latin words which, Matt was certain, didn’t really mean anything at all. However, they seemed to work, because as soon as she got her crucifix out, people started cursing and shrieking and spitting just like in that movie — the one his brother hadn’t wanted him to see but that Matt had stolen from his collection and watched anyway.
 
He wasn’t allowed in the basement where the rituals took place until he’d turned ten, but all the same, all the time, as he listened to the godless shrieking from his bedroom doorway, half-jealous of his mother’s attention on someone other than himself, Matt had wondered what it felt like to be possessed, to share your body and mind and soul with someone else, to lose yourself, your hands, your heart, completely.
 
No wonder why his mother’s victims all screamed as if they were dying; it must hurt, Matt thought, to sever what had become yours. Spiritual amputation. A gaping, bleeding, big fucking love-shaped hole in your soul.

 
*
 
 

Later, in retrospect, much much later, after all the laughing and the crying and the fucking and the fighting and the fucking and the fucking — et cetera et cetera — but long before the final detonation anyway, Matt supposed he should have seen it coming, so of course he bloody didn’t.
 
 
*

 
— he’s an accident just waiting to happen: a train with no breaks, a fuel leak at three thousand feet, a one-man detonation. Ready to burst. Always ready to burst.

 
(But he never does)
 
 
 
where: down the rabbit hole
feeling: awake
listening to: Easily - Muse
 
 
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cherrylng[personal profile] cherrylng on May 2nd, 2017 07:33 am (UTC)
♫ sick of this space, wish we could be far away: < molko[personal profile] forameus on May 2nd, 2017 11:28 am (UTC)
cherrylng[personal profile] cherrylng on May 2nd, 2017 11:38 am (UTC)
Oh my god, you're doing something with ghost sex in it!

But then again, we can either get REALLY spooky music or a more nostalgic spooky music
♫ sick of this space, wish we could be far away[personal profile] forameus on May 2nd, 2017 11:48 am (UTC)
LOL, hold your horses - no ghost sex here, it's just a metaphor. I don't really listen to music when I'm writing (I find it distracting), but Placebo are always good at suggesting titles.
cherrylng[personal profile] cherrylng on May 2nd, 2017 11:55 am (UTC)
Metaphorical ghost sex works as well o u o

I sometimes listen to music since it helps me a lot... in figuring out a good title for whatever story that I'm going to post LOL
So, did you like the spooky music or nay? o u o
Tamar Elmensdorp-Lijzenga[personal profile] tamarelmensdorp on May 2nd, 2017 08:21 am (UTC)
What, wait, is that all, noooooooo. You better bring us more soon. I am already loving this very much.
♫ sick of this space, wish we could be far away: < split!dom[personal profile] forameus on May 2nd, 2017 11:32 am (UTC)
Ha - yes, that's all. I did say it was a short prologue. :P

Chapter 1 is still being betaed, so I'll definitely post more of this as soon as it's done. Thank you for taking the time to read & leave a comment, though, I really appreciate it! ♥
Tamar Elmensdorp-Lijzenga[personal profile] tamarelmensdorp on May 2nd, 2017 11:44 am (UTC)
Yes, you did, but I still had to moan about it. It was shorter than I thought.
♫ sick of this space, wish we could be far away: < mazzoo[personal profile] forameus on May 2nd, 2017 11:52 am (UTC)
Sorry? :<

Here, you can stare at Matt (staring back at ya) while you wait for the next part (which is SO long it'll have to be split in 2/3 chapters, lol):
Tamar Elmensdorp-Lijzenga[personal profile] tamarelmensdorp on May 2nd, 2017 12:01 pm (UTC)
Matt does make up for it a bit *trying to keep pouting while melting from dreamyness at the same time*
D[personal profile] million_star on May 3rd, 2017 02:40 am (UTC)
Girl. Yes. More, dammit, more! This was utterly wonderful, I'm so excited!
♫ sick of this space, wish we could be far away: < mazzoo[personal profile] forameus on May 3rd, 2017 03:52 pm (UTC)
*swoons*

N'aw, you might have just made my day with this comment. Thank you! ♥♥♥
auctioncat[personal profile] auctioncat on May 5th, 2017 12:29 pm (UTC)
I thought it was a.death fic for a moment thank god its not lol
♫ sick of this space, wish we could be far away[personal profile] forameus on May 5th, 2017 12:41 pm (UTC)
I could never write a death fic. Never ever.
I'm all about the seriously angsty stuff, but death fics are a bit too much for me. :(

Thank you for Reading and leaving a comment, pal! ❤

Edited 2017-05-05 12:41 pm (UTC)
musclexmuseum[personal profile] musclexmuseum on May 6th, 2017 08:57 pm (UTC)
hmm, that was short but still intriguing...!
♫ sick of this space, wish we could be far away[personal profile] forameus on May 7th, 2017 10:35 pm (UTC)
Thank you for reading, dear! :D
And yep, it's very short indeed. I supposed you could see it more like a brief summary than a prologue, so... (I'm just making up excuses, lol)
mjartrod[personal profile] mjartrod on May 28th, 2017 09:18 am (UTC)
Oh my god, what a start! Im frankly delighted i didnt read earlier (lmao) cos too short and ALMOST 3 MONTHS WITH NO UPDATE.

I *loved* the metaphor, I had never thought of it like that but it was a perfect choice for Matt. I couldnt tell straight away where you were going with the start but when it clicked it was suxh a 'OH' moment <3

Love the sense of drama and your writing is excellent. Very fluid and with a bit of "flourish" (wrong word but i think you know what i mean!) but while getting the point across in a clear manner *nod of approval*

Bring the rest, can't wait to see the crash coming. I'm gonna be SAD but it must be for a good cause hehe
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hannah_chapter1[personal profile] hannah_chapter1 on June 28th, 2017 03:28 pm (UTC)
ooh, brilliant start!
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